Dear God, I Hate Myself

by Xiu Xiu

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Read almost any piece about Xiu Xiu and you'll see words like 'harsh' or 'brutal' — the same words that appear before 'truth' when an unwavering eye is turned on any intimate detail of our lives. Fair descriptions of the themes central to the music, they sit incongruous to the refined, intricate, and beautiful approach taken in crafting the twelve tracks on Xiu Xiu's new album Dear God, I Hate Myself.

The two biggest constants throughout Xiu Xiu's catalog are honesty and evolution. This remains true with Dear God, I Hate Myself as it delivers a look at responsibility, fear, healing, and societal roles wrapped in rich gothic pop music. The sound is still distinctly Xiu Xiu, but Jamie Stewart's vocals are finally effortless paired with vibrant melodies full of subtlety and the distinct sonic accents expected of this anticipated Xiu Xiu release. The result is a record that proves that art can be pop and pop can challenge you to look inside yourself.

Stewart is joined by new full-time band member Angela Seo on piano, synth, and drum programming; with production handled by Jamie and Deerhoof's Greg Saunier. Together they've crafted a fully-grown sound for Dear God, I Hate Myself with elements from Goth and pop that are expertly performed by a crop of brilliant musicians. Saunier himself plays on much of the record as does Ches Smith (John Zorn, Terry Riley, Marc Ribot). Ches supplies timpani, conga and moog along with a broad range of other instrumentation. Deerhoof's John Dieterich is all over a rendition of the traditional folk song 'Cumberland Gap' and Xiu Xiu is even joined by the Immaculata Catholic School Orchestra in Stewart's ode to heartbreak and healing, 'This Too Shall Pass Away (for Freddy).' The title track, one of four songs done primarily on a Nintendo DS, explores the relationship between faith and despair with a layer of commentary provided by the bizarre sounds of the music itself.

Each new Xiu Xiu release has evolved alongside the lives of Jamie Stewart and company. On this record you'll find more intensity and introspection than ever before, but sonically and lyrically it continues to move forward with a subtly new perspective — hyper-focused yet aware of a larger, external picture unfolding. The pace of the record grips you, the music offers layers of detail, and the themes focus on not just the past or stark present but hint towards vespers of the future as well. Dear God, I Hate Myself will challenge you and force you to look inside yourself, but only after you get lost in the music. It's passionate, it's energetic, and it affects you.

Dear God, I Hate Myself is a beautiful piece of humanist art. It's an important addition to the growing body of intelligent music from Xiu Xiu. And it's a brilliant gothic pop record that can stand next to anything.


Xiu Xiu's “I Love the Valley, OH!” (from 2004's Fabulous Muscles) came in at #176 on PITCHFORK's “The Top 500 Tracks of the 2000s,” sandwiched between Eminem's “The Real Slim Shady” and “Yeah” by Usher [ft. Lil Jon and Ludacris]!

“this goth pop is brilliantly poignant”

“Xiu Xiu's knack for grafting lush hooks onto noisy post-rock remains seductive.”

“extremely imaginative”

“Refining and expanding their amalgamation of musical influences, Xiu Xiu have raised the bar for themselves again…The most confidently composed of their career, Women is another blossom from Xiu Xiu's fertile garden of creativity.”

“Love it or hate it, you can't ignore Xiu Xiu. For nearly a decade, the Bay-area art-poppers have been cultivating an original voice among crops of indistinguishable peers. Xiu Xiu's polarizing effect on indie-rock audiences has everything to do with lead songwriter Jamie Stewart's inimitable, often jarring vocal calisthenics, as well as his penchant for the darker of human inclinations…Women As Lovers also serves as a testament to a shifting musical climate.”

“sounding as brilliant and as maddening as ever, tortured and combative, and with a kind of confrontational intimacy that is inimitable”

Just When You Sense a Path, a Band Changes Its Course

“A dazzling showcase of an incredible group.”


released 23 February 2010
Recorded in Oakland, CA and Durham, NC
Mixed by Greg Saunier
Produced by Thee Fallings Out Brose
Design by Joe Stewart
Sticker by J. Morrison
Mastered by Brent Lambert at Kitchen
All songs published by Will It Burn Music BMI (World) & Ediciones Acuarela SGAE (Iberia) Except Cumberland Gap (Traditional)
String and Horn Arrangements by Jamie Stewart



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